「俾啲心機呀!」我常常都提醒自己。
但是，總未達標。是我的能力有限，還是我不願思考?
我怕的是什麼呢?我大概知道，我怕的是人。我在逃避。
以前面對數學問題，傷透腦筋也樂意尋求解答，因為所有都有邏輯，有「因為所以」，有答案。

看了一本小說，那是從一個自閉症少年第一身角度寫成。有一句說話，很有同感。
"... he said I liked maths because it was safe. ... because it meant solving problems, and these problems were difficult and interesting but there was always a straightforward answer at the end. .... maths wasn't like life because in life there are no straightforward answer at the end....”